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473 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 14:10:19 ID:5btUlvgg - couple of hundred rubbernecks that didn't have anything better to do than stand
around and watch everybody falling all over themselves.
"Do you want to get a table inside and have a drink or something?" I sai
d to her finally.
"That's the most marvelous idea you've had all day," the said. She was k
illing herself. It was brutal. I really felt sorry for her.
We took off our goddam skates and went inside this bar where you can get
drinks and watch the skaters in just your stocking feet. As soon as we sat down
, old Sally took off her gloves, and I gave her a cigarette. She wasn't looking
too happy. The waiter came up, and I ordered a Coke for her--she didn't drink--a
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553 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 15:58:19 ID:5btUlvgg - f on the side of the pillow. She had her mouth way open. It's funny. You take ad
ults, they look lousy when they're asleep and they have their mouths way open, b
ut kids don't. Kids look all right. They can even have spit all over the pillow
and they still look all right.
I went around the room, very quiet and all, looking at stuff for a while
. I felt swell, for a change. I didn't even feel like I was getting pneumonia or
anything any more. I just felt good, for a change. Old Phoebe's clothes were on
this chair right next to the bed. She's very neat, for a child. I mean she does
n't just throw her stuff around, like some kids. She's no slob. She had the jack
et to this tan suit my mother bought her in Canada hung up on the back of the ch
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563 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:03:34 ID:5btUlvgg - ter Foundation. Just this one day they had it--today was the only day. It was al
l about this doctor in Kentucky and everything that sticks a blanket over this c
hild's face that's a cripple and can't walk. Then they send him to jail and ever
ything. It was excellent."
"Listen a second. Didn't they say what time they'd--"
"He feels sorry for it, the doctor. That's why he sticks this blanket ov
er her face and everything and makes her suffocate. Then they make him go to jai
l for life imprisonment, but this child that he stuck the blanket over its head
comes to visit him all the time and thanks him for what he did. He was a mercy k
iller. Only, he knows he deserves to go to jail because a doctor isn't supposed
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567 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:07:17 ID:5btUlvgg - es?" I said. Boy, that stuff drives me crazy. That goddam Hollywood. "What'd you
do to your arm?" I asked her. I noticed she had this big hunk of adhesive tape
on her elbow. The reason I noticed it, her pajamas didn't have any sleeves.
"This boy, Curtis Weintraub, that's in my class, pushed me while I was g
oing down the stairs in the park," she said. "Wanna see?" She started taking the
crazy adhesive tape off her arm.
"Leave it alone. Why'd he push you down the stairs?"
"I don't know. I think he hates me," old Phoebe said. "This other girl a
nd me, Selma Atterbury, put ink and stuff all over his windbreaker."
"That isn't nice. What are you--a child, for God's sake?"
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569 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:08:03 ID:5btUlvgg - "I told you. They let us out early. They let the whole--"
"You did get kicked out! You did!" old Phoebe said. Then she hit me on t
he leg with her fist. She gets very fisty when she feels like it. "You did! Oh,
Holden!" She had her hand on her mouth and all. She gets very emotional, I swear
to God.
"Who said I got kicked out? Nobody said I--"
"You did. You did," she said. Then she smacked me again with her fist. I
f you don't think that hurts, you're crazy. "Daddy'll kill you!" she said. Then
she flopped on her stomach on the bed and put the goddam pillow over her head.
She does that quite frequently. She's a true madman sometimes.
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581 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:15:31 ID:5btUlvgg - things. You don't."
"I do! That's where you're wrong--that's exactly where you're wrong! Why
the hell do you have to say that?" I said. Boy, was she depressing me.
"Because you don't," she said. "Name one thing."
"One thing? One thing I like?" I said. "Okay."
The trouble was, I couldn't concentrate too hot. Sometimes it's hard to
concentrate.
"One thing I like a lot you mean?" I asked her.
She didn't answer me, though. She was in a cockeyed position way the hel
l over the other side of the bed. She was about a thousand miles away. "C'mon an
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592 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:24:07 ID:5btUlvgg - "I don't give a damn if he does," I said. I got up from the bed then, be
cause what I wanted to do, I wanted to phone up this guy that was my English tea
cher at Elkton Hills, Mr. Antolini. He lived in New York now. He quit Elkton Hil
ls. He took this job teaching English at N.Y.U. "I have to make a phone call," I
told Phoebe. "I'll be right back. Don't go to sleep." I didn't want her to go t
o sleep while I was in the living room. I knew she wouldn't but I said it anyway
, just to make sure.
While I was walking toward the door, old Phoebe said, "Holden!" and I tu
rned around.
She was sitting way up in bed. She looked so pretty. "I'm taking belchin
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606 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:32:52 ID:5btUlvgg - "No. Now. Now's the best time," I said. "She'll be in the bathroom and D
addy'll turn on the news or something. Now's the best time." I could hardly tie
my shoelaces, I was so damn nervous. Not that they would've killed me or anythin
g if they'd caught me home, but it would've been very unpleasant and all. "Where
the hell are ya?" I said to old Phoebe. It was so dark I couldn't see her.
"Here." She was standing right next to me. I didn't even see her.
"I got my damn bags at the station," I said. "Listen. You got any dough,
Phoeb? I'm practically broke."
"Just my Christmas dough. For presents and all. I haven't done any shopp
ing at all yet."
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608 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:34:25 ID:5btUlvgg - "Here," old Phoebe said. She was trying to give me the dough, but she co
uldn't find my hand.
"Where?"
She put the dough in my hand.
"Hey, I don't need all this," I said. "Just give me two bucks, is all. N
o kidding--Here." I tried to give it back to her, but she wouldn't take it.
"You can take it all. You can pay me back. Bring it to the play."
"How much is it, for God's sake?"
"Eight dollars and eighty-five cents. Sixty-five cents. I spent some."
Then, all of a sudden, I started to cry. I couldn't help it. I did it so
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615 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:38:18 ID:5btUlvgg - You were always yelling when you were there. That's because the both of
them were never in the same room at the same time. It was sort of funny.
"Sit down, Holden," Mr. Antolini said. You could tell he was a little oi
led up. The room looked like they'd just had a party. Glasses were all over the
place, and dishes with peanuts in them. "Excuse the appearance of the place," he
said. "We've been entertaining some Buffalo friends of Mrs. Antolini's . . . So
me buffaloes, as a matter of fact."
I laughed, and Mrs. Antolini yelled something in to me from the kitchen,
but I couldn't hear her. "What'd she say?" I asked Mr. Antolini.
"She said not to look at her when she comes in. She just arose from the
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618 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:39:09 ID:5btUlvgg - about it. "It's this course where each boy in class has to get up in class and m
ake a speech. You know. Spontaneous and all. And if the boy digresses at all, yo
u're supposed to yell 'Digression!' at him as fast as you can. It just about dro
ve me crazy. I got an F in it."
"Why?"
"Oh, I don't know. That digression business got on my nerves. I don't kn
ow. The trouble with me is, I like it when somebody digresses. It's more interes
ting and all."
"You don't care to have somebody stick to the point when he tells you so
mething?"
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627 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:43:39 ID:5btUlvgg - neral, being an all-around--"
"I didn't cut any classes. You weren't allowed to cut any. There were a
couple of them I didn't attend once in a while, like that Oral Expression I told
you about, but I didn't cut any."
I didn't feel at all like discussing it. The coffee made my stomach feel
a little better, but I still had this awful headache.
Mr. Antolini lit another cigarette. He smoked like a fiend. Then he said
, "Frankly, I don't know what the hell to say to you, Holden."
"I know. I'm very hard to talk to. I realize that."
"I have a feeling that you're riding for some kind of a terrible, terrib
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634 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:47:50 ID:5btUlvgg - ure what he was talking about. I was pretty sure I knew, but I wasn't too positi
ve at the time. I was too damn tired.
"And I hate to tell you," he said, "but I think that once you have a fai
r idea where you want to go, your first move will be to apply yourself in school
. You'll have to. You're a student--whether the idea appeals to you or not. You'
re in love with knowledge. And I think you'll find, once you get past all the Mr
. Vineses and their Oral Comp--"
"Mr. Vinsons," I said. He meant all the Mr. Vinsons, not all the Mr. Vin
eses. I shouldn't have interrupted him, though.
"All right--the Mr. Vinsons. Once you get past all the Mr. Vinsons, you'
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650 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:55:45 ID:5btUlvgg - y pass at ne. I wondered if maybe he just liked to pat guys on the head when the
y're asleep. I mean how can you tell about that stuff for sure? You can't. I eve
n started wondering if maybe I should've got my bags and gone back to his house,
the way I'd said I would. I mean I started thinking that even if he was a flit
he certainly'd been very nice to me. I thought how he hadn't minded it when I'd
called him up so late, and how he'd told me to come right over if I felt like it
. And how he went to all that trouble giving me that advice about finding out th
e size of your mind and all, and how he was the only guy that'd even gone near t
hat boy James Castle I told you about when he was dead. I thought about all that
stuff. And the more I thought about it, the more depressed I got. I mean I star
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658 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 16:59:39 ID:5btUlvgg - t without disappearing, I'd thank him. Then it would start all over again as soo
n as I got to the next corner. But I kept going and all. I was sort of afraid to
stop, I think--I don't remember, to tell you the truth. I know I didn't stop ti
ll I was way up in the Sixties, past the zoo and all. Then I sat down on this be
nch. I could hardly get my breath, and I was still sweating like a bastard. I sa
t there, I guess, for about an hour. Finally, what I decided I'd do, I decided I
'd go away. I decided I'd never go home again and I'd never go away to another s
chool again. I decided I'd just see old Phoebe and sort of say good-by to her an
d all, and give her back her Christmas dough, and then I'd start hitchhiking my
way out West. What I'd do, I figured, I'd go down to the Holland Tunnel and bum
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672 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:07:18 ID:5btUlvgg - l old Phoebe showed up, so I helped them find the place where the mummies were.
Boy, I used to know exactly where they were, but I hadn't been in that museum in
years.
"You two guys so interested in mummies?" I said.
"Yeah."
"Can't your friend talk?" I said.
"He ain't my friend. He's my brudda."
"Can't he talk?" I looked at the one that wasn't doing any talking. "Can
't you talk at all?" I asked him.
"Yeah," he said. "I don't feel like it."
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678 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:26:01 ID:5btUlvgg - d books. I'd have this rule that nobody could do anything phony when they visite
d me. If anybody tried to do anything phony, they couldn't stay.
All of a sudden I looked at the clock in the checkroom and it was twenty
-five of one. I began to get scared that maybe that old lady in the school had t
old that other lady not to give old Phoebe my message. I began to get scared tha
t maybe she'd told her to burn it or something. It really scared hell out of me.
I really wanted to see old Phoebe before I hit the road. I mean I had her Chris
tmas dough and all.
Finally, I saw her. I saw her through the glass part of the door. The re
ason I saw her, she had my crazy hunting hat on--you could see that hat about te
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683 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:29:15 ID:5btUlvgg - "Come on," I said. I started up the steps to the museum again. I figured
what I'd do was, I'd check the crazy suitcase she'd brought in the checkroom, a
ndy then she could get it again at three o'clock, after school. I knew she could
n't take it back to school with her. "Come on, now," I said.
She didn't go up the steps with me, though. She wouldn't come with me. I
went up anyway, though, and brought the bag in the checkroom and checked it, an
d then I came down again. She was still standing there on the sidewalk, but she
turned her back on me when I came up to her. She can do that. She can turn her b
ack on you when she feels like it. "I'm not going away anywhere. I changed my mi
nd. So stop crying, and shut up," I said. The funny part was, she wasn't even cr
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686 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:30:05 ID:5btUlvgg - "I said I'm not going back to school. You can do what you want to do, bu
t I'm not going back to chool," she said. "So shut up." It was the first time sh
e ever told me to shut up. It sounded terrible. God, it sounded terrible. It sou
nded worse than swearing. She still wouldn't look at me either, and every time I
sort of put my hand on her shoulder or something, she wouldn't let me.
"Listen, do you want to go for a walk?" I asked her. "Do you want to tak
e a walk down to the zoo? If I let you not go back to school this afternoon and
go for walk, will you cut out this crazy stuff?"
She wouldn't answer me, so I said it over again. "If I let you skip scho
ol this afternoon and go for a little walk, will you cut out the crazy stuff? Wi
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689 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:32:43 ID:5btUlvgg - nd sort of put my hands on her shoulders, but she bent her knees and slid out fr
om me--she can certainly be very snotty when she wants to. She kept standing the
re while the sea lions were getting fed and I stood right behind her. I didn't p
ut my hands on her shoulders again or anything because if I had she really would
've beat it on me. Kids are funny. You have to watch what you're doing.
She wouldn't walk right next to me when we left the sea lions, but she d
idn't walk too far away. She sort of walked on one side of the sidewalk and I wa
lked on the other side. It wasn't too gorgeous, but it was better than having he
r walk about a mile away from me, like before. We went up and watched the bears,
on that little hill, for a while, but there wasn't much to watch. Only one of t
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694 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:35:45 ID:5btUlvgg - my pocket.
"Aren't you gonna ride, too?" she asked me. She was looking at me sort o
f funny. You could tell she wasn't too sore at me any more.
"Maybe I will the next time. I'll watch ya," I said. "Got your ticket?"
"Yes."
"Go ahead, then--I'll be on this bench right over here. I'll watch ya."
I went over and sat down on this bench, and she went and got on the carrousel. S
he walked all around it. I mean she walked once all the way around it. Then she
sat down on this big, brown, beat-up-looking old horse. Then the carrousel start
ed, and I watched her go around and around. There were only about five or six ot
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699 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:38:12 ID:5btUlvgg -
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That's all I'm going to tell about. I could probably tell you what I did
after I went home, and how I got sick and all, and what school I'm supposed to
go to next fall, after I get out of here, but I don't feel like it. I really don
't. That stuff doesn't interest me too much right now.
A lot of people, especially this one psychoanalyst guy they have here, k
eeps asking me if I'm going apply myself when I go back to school next September
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701 ：名無しさん＠お腹いっぱい。[sage]：2010/07/25(日) 17:39:53 ID:5btUlvgg - l I know is, I sort of miss everybody I told about. Even old Stradlater and Ackl
ey, for instance. I think I even miss that goddam Maurice. It's funny. Don't eve
r tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.
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